2:00 A.M. doesn’t provide much comfort for a mind battling regret, nay, battling the solidification of doubt into becoming concrete regret. Around this time of night you can hear the ambiance of a Carly Rae Jepsen album and a David Attenborough Netflix documentary, which is ironically on YouTube and not on Netflix because if you have self respect or a conscience and are below the age of 35 you should never be caught dead with a Netflix subscription. Many of my best friends in Alberta silently believe that my potential and life and talents are being wasted in pursuit of an unrealistic dream and they’re obviously, painstakingly correct. Portions of the solution that help solidify doubt into regret come from this doubt from others, those who are more than worthy of respect, people who are full of soul, have beautiful minds, and worthy of profound love. It doesn’t matter. Not quite in a fatalist way, but never was there going to be a time where these events did not transpire. What type of meaning is supposed to be ascribed to a life well spent in any case? A life well spent could certainly do with less complaining about its circumstances, a little less haphazardness in pursuit of affection, a little more juice when it comes to dedicated effort and effortful positive thinking and action. Water. Life outside of whatever is happening in North America is likely a better course of action out of principle! The only future for a lover in that place is sacrifice, a different kind than the one that takes place here. Friends of mine fight fires there. It’s hard to find any other use for a soul in a place like that. It’s a beautiful thing to do and a beautiful and very literal way of dedication towards the containment, elimination, and mitigation of the effects of soulless modern evils. Italy feels like hell, it’s hot as shit every single day in Milan. Fires here are going to get worse too, maybe there will be a lucky opportunity to throw my own life on the line in person to help. It is precisely because life is so precious that it should be experimented with as much as possible. It is the same reason why hearing that rich people throw away their socks after they wear them one time should, if spiritually salvageable, fill you with profound disgust. Please I beg of you never be afraid to be a rat piece of shit, never be afraid to get fucking low and dirty, but do it in the spirit of the game. The spirit of the game of life, like many other games, is in a much worse state if its best players are always experimenting with the technicalities of a rulebook. For the love of fucking God have a soul, be great, and while you are great headbutt somebody. If you do anything in this life of yours get to the top of something and then promise to go out like a buster. This is one of many reasons why Diego Maradona is brilliant.